iwant2beaskinnybitch

So far so good on round two of Isagenix cleanse .  I’m getting to that “zen” place that I talked about before.  Or maybe I’m just exhausted tonight.  I’ll know more tomorrow.  What I can tell you for sure is that I don’t like being told what I can and cannot have.Prior to the cleanse it is recommended that you do a “pre-cleanse” which consists of two days of Isalean shakes and sensible meals. It is mandatory for newbies.  I actually did three days because I was doing a lot of heavy lifting and moving in my basement and I needed the extra energy.  It is actually good I planned it that way, too, because day one of the pre-cleanse I was an absolute brat.

On that first day I ate about seven bite sized candy bars.  Bite sized, not minis.  The super tiny ones.  Why I feel the need to explain that, I don’t know.  It really is hard to explain oneself out of making the decision seven times to cheat on your program and eat candy.

Here’s the interesting part.  That was seven minis in one day.  Do you know how many I have had total since Halloween?  MAYBE four.  I just don’t desire them.  I am a chips and cheese type, not a sweet lover.  (except chocolate chip cookies.  I don’t buy them, cannot resist them, period. No sense in even going there.)

I simply ate the candy because I couldn’t.  On day two of the pre-cleanse I told myself that a pre-cleanse is not even required for me and that I could eat any way I wanted until Sunday when the real cleanse is scheduled to begin.  Guess what.  I didn’t eat any candy that day.  It didn’t even occur to me.

So I’m holding onto that “nonchalance” and trying to remember that it really is my choice what I am going to eat and that there is no reason to have an attitude about it.  I had a realization similar to this on my first Isagenix cleanse but I had forgotten.  That is why journals are such a good idea.  You learn so much about yourself and the way you deal with food when you’re involved in a program, it is worth it to jot some notes and review them from time to time.

I have done great on my first juice day today.  I prefer the juice days to the shake days because I like how my body feels and not having to think about what to eat. I have to go into the office at ChangingStreets.com tomorrow so I packed prepared and packed my four juice servings so I have no excuses for anything but success!

I love that picture! I found it here.

There was a conversation at the Today Forum about blogging the bare minimum just to get paid . I realized that I don’t even qualify for that! What can I do to improve that?  I already have so many goals right now and I haven’t even begun my list of New Year’s Resolutions yet!

Maybe I should try and identfy the why.

I do most of my blogging in the morning and often find myself saying, “I’ll do Skinny Bitch later.  That’s an evening blog.” Why do I say that?  Because of the nature of the blog I think it makes more sense to write at the end of the day when I can report the day’s events and progress.

What actually happens?

I get tired at night and cannot form the thoughts to type.  Or I just don’t even try because the day gets away from me and I go to bed.  Even on my full of energy late nights I often forget, consumed by some project or another, look at the clock and say,
“11:45!  I have 15 minutes to get my post in for the day.”  At least on those occasions, even though I don’t make it by midnight, my post is done for the next day.

This seems like an easy fix.

POST IN THE MORNING!  I am so energized in the morning and full of good ideas, why in the world would I suppress them until “later”.  Especially when I know full well that “later” never comes?  So what if I can’t post about the day because the day has happened yet. Hello!  Talk about yesterday and project about the day ahead.

That’s what I am doing today.  I have something on my mind and I am getting it out there.  I have high hopes that this will result in a better& fatter blog, a healthier&skinnier me, and a better&frequenter paypal deposit

As for the “bare minimum” discussion at the forum, it didn’t really apply to me.  The conversation was regarding folks who post every day at minimum word count to guarantee payment for that day .  I am neither guilty of posting as little as 100 words, nor posting every day.  Slacker, yes. Motivated and driven by the dollar, unfortunately not.

I can’t do it.  It’s too hard and I feel like I am going backward.  Time for another change.

My Goal here.

• Lose 50 lbs.
• Get fit.
• Adopt vegan lifestyle.

The Problem

• Making the time to eat right and exercise is challenging with 2 jobs and a wonderful yet caveman-ish husband.
• It is much easier for me to manage simple and healthy meals which include turkey and eggs.  I did it for 25 years.  It’s my comfort zone.

The Solution

• Take care of me first, then focus on the animals and ethics.
• Lose weight how I know I can, get healthy, rediscover those old good habits.
• Once I’m in a groove of good food choices and and regular exercise, start the conversion to veganism.

What’s Next?

• One nutritional cleansing per month.  I prefer the 9 day Isagenix .

I have made some baby steps in the form of looser pants, eliminating snacks, and giving my family the tools to take some responsibility for themselves so that I can take some time for me.  So although I have not lost as much weight as I would have liked since August, I have made good healthy changes.  My spirit and disposition in life in general have changed immensely.

Mood, spirit, positivity, negativity, confidence, health, and happiness are connected.  I assumed that when I lost some weight it would open the door to the positive, the spirit, and confidence, but it looks like the spirit and positive needed to emerge first!

Thanks to Avery for the flickr pic!

We all voted for change, though, didn’t we? We just have different ideas about how to get there.  These months have been so grueling, so exhausting and stressful.  We’ve had passionate debates, spirited conversations, and even some fun at our candidates expense.  I am so excited today and have been so glued to the television that all I want to do is tune in to CNN and watch.  So far I have managed to keep the television off produce at about 60% of a usual day.  I’m calling that a success.  Especially since the kids and hubby are home from school and work today which is always good for at least a 15% drop in productivity anyway!

Someone was grilling me the other day about where Obama gets all his campaign funds.  I don’t have a list of his incoming money and expenditures so I couldn’t really answer the question satisfactorily.  But I can offer access to the “We are the Ones” project.

I am so proud to be associated with “Momocrats”, “We are the Ones” and all the grassroots organizations working hard for our country and the change it needs,  and drawn together by the common belief that along WITH Senator Obama we can make that change happen.  Take a look at the video below, directed by Will.i.am of the Blackeyed Peas,  for a glimpse of the unity he has inspired among people.

There has been talk and speculation about where Barack Obama has gotten the “unprecedented”  money for his campaign. One only need to be aware of the “unprecedented” individual and grassroots support of the Obama campaign to get an idea how strong Obama’s resources are.  People making phone calls, sending emails, HANDWRITING postcards, buying buttons, and donating and much much more.  As individuals we may not have a lot of money, but in the large numbers of those contributing, that all adds up.

Even if you are not an Obama supporter you will appreciate the spirit and dedication of the ordinary folks who are being highlighted here, who have been working hard to carve out their path to change.